Now, why is the above title my title? I'm not particularly sure... it just felt appropriate.
This will not be a long post. my head hurts like crap and quite frankly, I just want to curl up in a ball!
[yup]
So, all nighter was a success! though me and sulet were zombie-fied and both slept 10+ hours the following day! let's hear it for "doing really crazy things!"
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Ya know what? I know my possts have been short and suckish lately, but I'm past the point of caring about much of anything >.<
So... yeah...
I'll TRY to post something worth reading tommorow night
...
~Lauren
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
All-nighter SUCCESS!!!
Hello, there! So the all nighter was a success! me and sulet made it out alive & lived to tell the tale! :D I'll post more later, because i'm on my nintendo DSi & its hard to type!
--Lauren
--Lauren
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Hullo!
Hai!
First off, watch this video. I made it and it's on Youtube :D
Second, how the hell do you discover yourself? Yees, it's a random question but me and Sulet are working towards the answer. And the road to that answer is VERY depressing. And when I say discover, i mean that I am working torwards figuring out what's missing in my life. As is she. And what is the meaning of life?!?!The sad thing is that no one can answwer that. (www.nightfreefly.blogspot.com. Read her blog, it explains our situation better XD)
*Sidenote: OMFG MY FOOT IS ASLEEP AND IT HURTS LIKE HELL.
Ahem.
Anyways, how are we going about this mission? Long discussions about life and everything in it, our insecurites and fears are being listed, and we ATTEMPT to give reasons of why we were put on this Earth, xD
As sulet put on her blog : "We're born. We grow up. We marry and have kids. We get old. We retire. We try and cram some last bits of fun into life before we die. Then our kids carry out that process, then their kids, then their kids, then THEIR kids, forever more." Depressing but very very true. :-/
So why are we put on this Earth? Some say its a test to see if we go to heaven. I say, wouldnt we just go straight to heaven? Whats the point of stopping at earth first? O_o
meh... whatever.
heres what i have discovered about myself: not much :-/ just that i trust the wrong people sometimes.
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on the plus side, me and sulet are gonnaa try and pull an all nighter soon! :D woooooooot.
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haha, bye!
~lauren <3
First off, watch this video. I made it and it's on Youtube :D
Second, how the hell do you discover yourself? Yees, it's a random question but me and Sulet are working towards the answer. And the road to that answer is VERY depressing. And when I say discover, i mean that I am working torwards figuring out what's missing in my life. As is she. And what is the meaning of life?!?!The sad thing is that no one can answwer that. (www.nightfreefly.blogspot.com. Read her blog, it explains our situation better XD)
*Sidenote: OMFG MY FOOT IS ASLEEP AND IT HURTS LIKE HELL.
Ahem.
Anyways, how are we going about this mission? Long discussions about life and everything in it, our insecurites and fears are being listed, and we ATTEMPT to give reasons of why we were put on this Earth, xD
As sulet put on her blog : "We're born. We grow up. We marry and have kids. We get old. We retire. We try and cram some last bits of fun into life before we die. Then our kids carry out that process, then their kids, then their kids, then THEIR kids, forever more." Depressing but very very true. :-/
So why are we put on this Earth? Some say its a test to see if we go to heaven. I say, wouldnt we just go straight to heaven? Whats the point of stopping at earth first? O_o
meh... whatever.
heres what i have discovered about myself: not much :-/ just that i trust the wrong people sometimes.
...
on the plus side, me and sulet are gonnaa try and pull an all nighter soon! :D woooooooot.
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haha, bye!
~lauren <3
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
OMG I'm not dead! XD
I haven't posted for like a thousand reasons that I'm too lazy to list XD
Annnnyway... about my birthday party. Here goes XD:
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!
My birthday party was epic! Allow me to break it down into different categories: XD
First, we go to the mall. I was a little upset at first because my mom promised me money and never gave me any, buuuut I got over it. Sulet bought this adorable Pikachu shirt at Hot Topic and let me wear it! :) And, of course, two of my other friends, Mallie and Emmee (those are nicknames, too, BTW) bought so freaking much "spray candy" that I thought I might gag. And sprayed it in my eye! :O But it was pretty funny. And then we all ate Chick-Fil-Et (is that how you spell it?!) and i had a fruit salad 'cause I'm a vegetarian (PIMP, LOL, JK)! And then Sulet mispronounced a word and the word she accidentally said was very funny and yeah. And Kenny (nickname) had a milkshake for dinner. XD And the car ride home ?It was lightening like crazy and all the girls were kinda freaked out, and we sat on each other on the way home. And I bit Mallie! XD Rawr. Drea (nickname) just kinda sat there looking awkward XD
At my house, we open presents 'YAYYYYYY'! The stuff I got:
Drea: This lavender scented insence thing. It's SO pretty and it has an "L" on it. I already put it in my room. Delicious :D
Emmee: Paramore t-shirt from hot topic, hollah! And gum. lol XD
Sulet: Linkin Park CD, thank God because I wanted it but had no money to buy it XD YAYAYAY! :D
Mallie: A friendship bracelet with a soft-drink charm on it, and CANDY :3 :)
Kenny: Hhahahahaha, you're last because you didn't get me anything. But i love yoo anyway! :)
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Soooo. .. . . after that, we do some random stuff, then proceed to the cake. This is where it gets REAL interesting. We basically were throwing cake at each other and pushing each other's faces into it. HAHAHAHAHAHA it was so fun . Until my mom came in.. ^_^' She was so incredibly pissed off. So she cleans it up and says not one of the girls there is allowed back. Good news: after the party she said three of them can come back. ... dotdotdot. XD (That wud be sulet, mallie, and emmee.) And hopefully the other two will never read this blog. heh heh.
***
So we then spend the rest of the night eating waay to much candy to be natural, playing the Sims 2, and 3 of the girls watched Orphan on my iPod XD
Then we woke up the next morning looking hungover (Hangover moment! Epic movie!)...ate cereal, and sent da girls home XD
All in all, it was fun in a way that no one but me and mah freaks would understand XD
Bye~!
~Lauren
Annnnyway... about my birthday party. Here goes XD:
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!
My birthday party was epic! Allow me to break it down into different categories: XD
First, we go to the mall. I was a little upset at first because my mom promised me money and never gave me any, buuuut I got over it. Sulet bought this adorable Pikachu shirt at Hot Topic and let me wear it! :) And, of course, two of my other friends, Mallie and Emmee (those are nicknames, too, BTW) bought so freaking much "spray candy" that I thought I might gag. And sprayed it in my eye! :O But it was pretty funny. And then we all ate Chick-Fil-Et (is that how you spell it?!) and i had a fruit salad 'cause I'm a vegetarian (PIMP, LOL, JK)! And then Sulet mispronounced a word and the word she accidentally said was very funny and yeah. And Kenny (nickname) had a milkshake for dinner. XD And the car ride home ?It was lightening like crazy and all the girls were kinda freaked out, and we sat on each other on the way home. And I bit Mallie! XD Rawr. Drea (nickname) just kinda sat there looking awkward XD
At my house, we open presents 'YAYYYYYY'! The stuff I got:
Drea: This lavender scented insence thing. It's SO pretty and it has an "L" on it. I already put it in my room. Delicious :D
Emmee: Paramore t-shirt from hot topic, hollah! And gum. lol XD
Sulet: Linkin Park CD, thank God because I wanted it but had no money to buy it XD YAYAYAY! :D
Mallie: A friendship bracelet with a soft-drink charm on it, and CANDY :3 :)
Kenny: Hhahahahaha, you're last because you didn't get me anything. But i love yoo anyway! :)
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Soooo. .. . . after that, we do some random stuff, then proceed to the cake. This is where it gets REAL interesting. We basically were throwing cake at each other and pushing each other's faces into it. HAHAHAHAHAHA it was so fun . Until my mom came in.. ^_^' She was so incredibly pissed off. So she cleans it up and says not one of the girls there is allowed back. Good news: after the party she said three of them can come back. ... dotdotdot. XD (That wud be sulet, mallie, and emmee.) And hopefully the other two will never read this blog. heh heh.
***
So we then spend the rest of the night eating waay to much candy to be natural, playing the Sims 2, and 3 of the girls watched Orphan on my iPod XD
Then we woke up the next morning looking hungover (Hangover moment! Epic movie!)...ate cereal, and sent da girls home XD
All in all, it was fun in a way that no one but me and mah freaks would understand XD
Bye~!
~Lauren
Friday, July 9, 2010
new song! AND MY PARTY IS TODAY!
birthday countdown of awesomeness: 9 days!!! party today! :)
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okay... so another song I wrote.
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"What Midnight is For"
Save your daydreams for night
They're better then, anyway
Looking into the blackness
I swear I must be seeing things
And as I hear the song that makes me forget
I smile, no, I'm not sleeping yet
I refuse to leave consciousness
I'm making my own dreams while awake
Pretty things float in the air
Of course, I imagine it
But I don't even care, no
I don't even care
I know that some people say hoping is pointless
Well let them think that, it's my inspiration
Dreaming is my only escape, It's my fixation
And when others are asleep
I'm staring at the wall
Smiling and sending my call
To no one in particular
I refuse to leave consciousness
I'm making my own dreams while awake
Pretty things float in the air
Of course, I imagine it
But I don't even care, no
I don't even care
[Bridge]
This is what midnight is for...
This is what midnight is for...
This is what midnight is for...
I refuse to leave consciousness
I'm making my own dreams while awake
Pretty things float in the air
Of course, I imagine it
But I don't even care, no
I don't even care
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In all honesty, this song scares the CRAP out of me. No, it's not scary at all... but if you were in my head when I wrote it... you'd be scared too. I'll put it like this: the song doesn't sound like it would be scary, but if it had a music video, it would be twisted and dark. XD Kinda like the music video for paramore's "brick by boring brick." the second verse of that video weirds me out :P
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It would be really shizzed up if some random person found all the songs i posted here years later and sold them or something... is there any way to copyright them? *is talking to self* It would probably cost money to copyright them...
XD
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SO EXCITED FOR MEH PARTY! :D
Hmmm... yeah.
peace out?
XD
~Lauren
UPDATE: www.nightfreefly.blogspot.com = my friends blog. Check out her "Camping Skit WTF Scene". Or something like that... not sure what the exact post title is. FREAKING FUNNY! :D
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okay... so another song I wrote.
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"What Midnight is For"
Save your daydreams for night
They're better then, anyway
Looking into the blackness
I swear I must be seeing things
And as I hear the song that makes me forget
I smile, no, I'm not sleeping yet
I refuse to leave consciousness
I'm making my own dreams while awake
Pretty things float in the air
Of course, I imagine it
But I don't even care, no
I don't even care
I know that some people say hoping is pointless
Well let them think that, it's my inspiration
Dreaming is my only escape, It's my fixation
And when others are asleep
I'm staring at the wall
Smiling and sending my call
To no one in particular
I refuse to leave consciousness
I'm making my own dreams while awake
Pretty things float in the air
Of course, I imagine it
But I don't even care, no
I don't even care
[Bridge]
This is what midnight is for...
This is what midnight is for...
This is what midnight is for...
I refuse to leave consciousness
I'm making my own dreams while awake
Pretty things float in the air
Of course, I imagine it
But I don't even care, no
I don't even care
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In all honesty, this song scares the CRAP out of me. No, it's not scary at all... but if you were in my head when I wrote it... you'd be scared too. I'll put it like this: the song doesn't sound like it would be scary, but if it had a music video, it would be twisted and dark. XD Kinda like the music video for paramore's "brick by boring brick." the second verse of that video weirds me out :P
...
It would be really shizzed up if some random person found all the songs i posted here years later and sold them or something... is there any way to copyright them? *is talking to self* It would probably cost money to copyright them...
XD
.
.
.
SO EXCITED FOR MEH PARTY! :D
Hmmm... yeah.
peace out?
XD
~Lauren
UPDATE: www.nightfreefly.blogspot.com = my friends blog. Check out her "Camping Skit WTF Scene". Or something like that... not sure what the exact post title is. FREAKING FUNNY! :D
Thursday, July 8, 2010
List of Shiz! :)
Hello!
I'm starting off my blog with a list of people who need to be hugged,
and people who don't:
Do:
1. the maker of ipods! theyre the only reason i can fall asleep at
night (slow, sad song playlist, i have like 3 of those playlists XD)
2. hayley williams! people are too hard on her about the TwitPic
thing! I forgive her!
3. Eminem, (Real name Marshall Mathers). Sure, hes a rapper, but hes
so honest, some of his songs just really bring tears to my eyes!
(Beautiful, Stan, and Not Afraid are my favorites)
4. My kitty duke. 'Cause he's fat and loveable! :D
5. My grandma! She baked me a cake!!! And she's so nice. And always
takes my side when I fight with my mom or brother
6. Taylor Swift, because she sings the song "Crazier", which is the
SONG THAT EXPLAINS MY EXSISTANCE.
7. And, since 7 is my lucky number, I'll put the most important people
here. My friends! I totally wrote a song for you guys... but I'm too
embarassed to put it on here XD
And then people who don't need to be hugged:
1. the person who made earbuds for ipod brand! ARG! the music sounds
patchy! rawr!
2. kayne west! how dare you steal taylor swift's spotlight!
3. bugs. no. just no. i wont kill them, which is a request from a
friend, but i will never like them
4. homophobes. 'nuff said.
5. platinum blonde trouble who's name I will not put on here. RAWR
I'm starting off my blog with a list of people who need to be hugged,
and people who don't:
Do:
1. the maker of ipods! theyre the only reason i can fall asleep at
night (slow, sad song playlist, i have like 3 of those playlists XD)
2. hayley williams! people are too hard on her about the TwitPic
thing! I forgive her!
3. Eminem, (Real name Marshall Mathers). Sure, hes a rapper, but hes
so honest, some of his songs just really bring tears to my eyes!
(Beautiful, Stan, and Not Afraid are my favorites)
4. My kitty duke. 'Cause he's fat and loveable! :D
5. My grandma! She baked me a cake!!! And she's so nice. And always
takes my side when I fight with my mom or brother
6. Taylor Swift, because she sings the song "Crazier", which is the
SONG THAT EXPLAINS MY EXSISTANCE.
7. And, since 7 is my lucky number, I'll put the most important people
here. My friends! I totally wrote a song for you guys... but I'm too
embarassed to put it on here XD
And then people who don't need to be hugged:
1. the person who made earbuds for ipod brand! ARG! the music sounds
patchy! rawr!
2. kayne west! how dare you steal taylor swift's spotlight!
3. bugs. no. just no. i wont kill them, which is a request from a
friend, but i will never like them
4. homophobes. 'nuff said.
5. platinum blonde trouble who's name I will not put on here. RAWR
And that concludes todays "List of The Huggable!" :D
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Birthday countdown of awesomeness: 10 days! party tommorow!
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List of songs people probably don't know but should really know:
"Dance in the dark" - lady gaga
"cold as you" - taylor swift
"when it rains" - paramore
"brighter" - paramore
"Thankyou" - Dido
"Invisible" - taylor swift
"Thinking of you" - katy perry
"dancing with tears in my eyes" - ke$ha
"Wasted" - Carrie Underwood
Yup. That's right.
Sooooo... bye?!
XD Bye
~Lauren
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
If I See a Lemon, I Will Scream
That's right. Like a maniac. Okay, so on this website called fanfiction.net, they will sometimes put "lemons" in their stories (It's a website where you rewrite books, movies, anime, etc). Do I want to explain what a lemon is? NO. Let's just say it's inappropriate and nothing a kid should read, and apparently graphic....
So today, my brother offers me lemonade. I let out a squeak and run screaming "OH MY GOD NO!" from the room. Yeah , thats right.
Spazzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
waNT TO hear the preppiest math equasion on earth? okay: 1 purse+1 shoe= 2 cute
Yeah, it makes me want to stab my eyes out and never wear shoes again. 'Cause I'm afraid some preppy girl will be like "Tooooooooooooooooooooo cuuuuuuuuuuuuuute!" *EYE ROLL*
Listen to this epic song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lL2ZwXj1tXM . If you could hug a song, I would hug this song.
I just noticed that my blog is always changing topic. lalalala.
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Birthday countdown of awesomeness: 11 days! Party this Friday! :)
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This thing won't stop writing in italics!! RAWR!
OoooOooooOooooOooo... yeah.
Look, it's a fish! :O
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Hmm... my kitten duke likes to bite my hair. is this normal?
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I'm bored and there's nothing to write about!
But after friday and my party there will be plenty to right about!
Bye!
~Lauren
So today, my brother offers me lemonade. I let out a squeak and run screaming "OH MY GOD NO!" from the room. Yeah , thats right.
Spazzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
waNT TO hear the preppiest math equasion on earth? okay: 1 purse+1 shoe= 2 cute
Yeah, it makes me want to stab my eyes out and never wear shoes again. 'Cause I'm afraid some preppy girl will be like "Tooooooooooooooooooooo cuuuuuuuuuuuuuute!" *EYE ROLL*
Listen to this epic song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lL2ZwXj1tXM . If you could hug a song, I would hug this song.
I just noticed that my blog is always changing topic. lalalala.
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Birthday countdown of awesomeness: 11 days! Party this Friday! :)
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This thing won't stop writing in italics!! RAWR!
OoooOooooOooooOooo... yeah.
Look, it's a fish! :O.
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Hmm... my kitten duke likes to bite my hair. is this normal?
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I'm bored and there's nothing to write about!
But after friday and my party there will be plenty to right about!
Bye!
~Lauren
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Lights, Camera, RUN OFF THE SET SCREAMING!
If you're wondering WTF this blog title means, IDK. I was bored.
Anyway...
Birthday countdown of awesomeness: 12 days! :D
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I'm seriously wanting to write some depressing book... no frikking clue why...
A) i have no skills at writing
b) no determination to write
c) me writing a depressing book ... hm. if i did that i would walk around like "T_T" all the time XD
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Look at this awesome quote/saying. I didn't write it, but I love it.
okay, there's nothing to write! Gudbye!
~Lauren
Anyway...
Birthday countdown of awesomeness: 12 days! :D
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I'm seriously wanting to write some depressing book... no frikking clue why...
A) i have no skills at writing
b) no determination to write
c) me writing a depressing book ... hm. if i did that i would walk around like "T_T" all the time XD
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Look at this awesome quote/saying. I didn't write it, but I love it.
okay, there's nothing to write! Gudbye!
~Lauren
Monday, July 5, 2010
New stuff
^ Look at my kittys
It's meeeeee. Duh.
So, right now I'm just sitting at home, bored. I recently found this
thing called omegle.com... but I would not reccomend going on it. What
it does, is it connects you to some random person anywhere in the
world and you can IM them. After trying it out once, I realized that
that place is stalker central! So I left the website and vowed to
never go back.. it was weird!
...
And I'm sososososososo depressed because I realized that the one spot
in my house that has wifi won't work.. . . however I did find another
spot, but it's so inconvinient and I hate it!
So... my posts might not be very frequent. Not that anyone actually
reads this XD
OH, random chorus of a song I'm working on... I'm not gonna post the
whole thing cause it needs some serious fine tuning:
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We can't let this pass
No I won't let it
So just jump as the water rises
Even if you have to forget
The past, the present, everything you want
If this goes on any longer,
You'll be my whole heart
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I'm planning on it being called "Jump as The Water Rises". And I'm not
gonna tell what the song is about to ANYONE. It's a super secret XD,
and just when someone thinks they've figured out what it means, 'cause
it does sound like it would be about a couple almost breaking up,
they're WRONG. No one will ever know ... and I will never tell }:)
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Birthday COUNTDOWN OF AWESOMENESS: 13 days! <3
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Oh looklooklook, it's some quotes I wrote :D...
..."When they take something away from us, it is by complaining that
we give them what they want"...
..."The laugh, the talk, and the walk of those that I care about is
never beautiful in society's eyes, only in mine"...
..."Accepting that you are unique is easy to do. Embracing it,
however, is incredibly hard"...
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I think they sound virtuous. So, yah, I'm proud of 'em! :D okay now I
will do a breakdown of what they mean:
the first one: When someone punishes you by taking something that is
important, just say "ok!" because when we complain, the person who
took it gets satisfaction. *looks at mom*
the second one: I'm calling my friends dorks! But beautiful dorks! :)
the third one: When someone knows they are weird, dorky, unique,
crazy, different, is one thing. But when they embrace it, they becomes
HEROOOOS! :3 XD
lol... I'm weird. AND I EMBRACE IT.
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HYPERHYPERHYPER... and kinda hungry. LALALALALA.. I'm just randomly
talking now, aren't i?
Nooooooooom.
I wish my birthday would hurry up and come.
Oh well... goodbye,.
~Lauren XD
Sunday, July 4, 2010
hai...
It's late at night and I'm bored... so even though I posted like an hour and a half ago, I'm posting again.
There's really nothing to write about ...
NOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOM.
ohmygod look at this shirt: http://www.geekologie.com/2010/02/24/bacon-elements.jpg
I'm a vegetarinan... but that shirt is just awesome!
Lalala... here are some of my friends blogs:
Sulet: www.nightfreefly.blogspot.com
Ambar: http://randomblog4u98.blogspot.com/
And those are my only friends who have blogs, basically.
Who am i talking to, anyway?
XD
oh well. this post was stupid, random, and short
Bye!
~Lauren
There's really nothing to write about ...
NOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOM.
ohmygod look at this shirt: http://www.geekologie.com/2010/02/24/bacon-elements.jpg
I'm a vegetarinan... but that shirt is just awesome!
Lalala... here are some of my friends blogs:
Sulet: www.nightfreefly.blogspot.com
Ambar: http://randomblog4u98.blogspot.com/
And those are my only friends who have blogs, basically.
Who am i talking to, anyway?
XD
oh well. this post was stupid, random, and short
Bye!
~Lauren
Happy 4th of July!
Well, hi again. Happy 4th of July!!! ;D
So, my day is off to a pretty crappy start ... like it almost always is. :( Apparently, my mom thinks I've been changing and she doesn't like me or my attitude and blahblahblah.
But whatever. I'll get over it.. like always :P
Here's a song i wrote about .. basically my madness torward my mom. Don't judge me XD
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Puppet
I think I'm being chased
By something worse than my own fears
You took a punch at me
I didn't bother to hide the tears
The only thing I see when I look at you
Is the one thing that I, oh that I want to do
Kick and struggle for all I'm worth
Even if it makes the overall outcome worse
[Prechorus]
You think you know me?
(you don't know me anymore)
You think you own me?
(Go get your army and we'll have a war)
[Chorus]
All you can see is the worst in me
And if you want to there's no stopping it
You seem to truly believe
That I'm what you always wanted me to be
But it's your fault, your mistake
Now go bury your hope because it's fake
If you can't, if you can't, if you can't see me
For who I am then,
I guess we have a problem
I should've seen this coming
By the way you treated me
I was your puppet, just one of your things
Well go get your scissors
Because I'm sawing off the strings
You say you wanted to see me fly
But you put me down, buried me deep inside
Perfection was the one time you made me actually try
[Prechorus]
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Oh it's harder to see the ones
That you loved hurt you
But if leaving is nessecary
then It's something that I'll do
[Chorus]
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I'll admit, I'm kinda proud of that song. I liek it ^_^
YAY my birthday is in 14 days! But my party is in... OMG 5 days. Can't wait... 4 of the 5 people I have invited are defiantly coming, and the other one probably can too! awesome, right?
DUDE, right now my mom and brother are watching some scary show about a crazy murderer, and even though I love those kinda shows, its weird! But entertaining XD EW... the crazy dude just shot a cop. AHHH. D8 XD
Lalalala... I am so random.
Haha, well more later! Bye!
~Lauren
So, my day is off to a pretty crappy start ... like it almost always is. :( Apparently, my mom thinks I've been changing and she doesn't like me or my attitude and blahblahblah.
But whatever. I'll get over it.. like always :P
Here's a song i wrote about .. basically my madness torward my mom. Don't judge me XD
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Puppet
I think I'm being chased
By something worse than my own fears
You took a punch at me
I didn't bother to hide the tears
The only thing I see when I look at you
Is the one thing that I, oh that I want to do
Kick and struggle for all I'm worth
Even if it makes the overall outcome worse
[Prechorus]
You think you know me?
(you don't know me anymore)
You think you own me?
(Go get your army and we'll have a war)
[Chorus]
All you can see is the worst in me
And if you want to there's no stopping it
You seem to truly believe
That I'm what you always wanted me to be
But it's your fault, your mistake
Now go bury your hope because it's fake
If you can't, if you can't, if you can't see me
For who I am then,
I guess we have a problem
I should've seen this coming
By the way you treated me
I was your puppet, just one of your things
Well go get your scissors
Because I'm sawing off the strings
You say you wanted to see me fly
But you put me down, buried me deep inside
Perfection was the one time you made me actually try
[Prechorus]
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Oh it's harder to see the ones
That you loved hurt you
But if leaving is nessecary
then It's something that I'll do
[Chorus]
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I'll admit, I'm kinda proud of that song. I liek it ^_^
YAY my birthday is in 14 days! But my party is in... OMG 5 days. Can't wait... 4 of the 5 people I have invited are defiantly coming, and the other one probably can too! awesome, right?
DUDE, right now my mom and brother are watching some scary show about a crazy murderer, and even though I love those kinda shows, its weird! But entertaining XD EW... the crazy dude just shot a cop. AHHH. D8 XD
Lalalala... I am so random.
Haha, well more later! Bye!
~Lauren
Saturday, July 3, 2010
First post...
hai! So I guess this is my first blog post, pretty cool right? yeah...
anyway, my name is Lauren! I'm really not expecting anyone to read this, I'm just writing this to talk about my life and all that crap. PLUS, this is better than a journal because my mom just loves to go in my diaries/journals! It sucks.
No, I'm not saying this is some private thing that I am trying to keep a secret. Rather, I want people to find this and read it! But, I would never in a million years expect my mom to read this. My brain might explode if that happened. Mostly cause she can barely turn on a computer, much less find her daughter's blog. XD
Hmmm... so. I guess I'll post some random facts!
Best friend: i have 5!! (and these are in no particular order): Kennedie, Jordan, Sarah Elizabeth, Emily, Ambar. The only thing is Sarah E. never answers her phone and since school is out I NEEEEVER talk to her! But I get to see the other girls :)
And.. yes, of course I have other friends, but it would just be kinda stupid to list every single friend I have. it would sound snooty or something XD
Yesterday, I went to my friend Amalia's birthday party, and we went to see the movie Grown Ups! Later that night, we also watch "The house on sorority row"! It this really creepy horror movie from the '80s... it was kinda corny but still really good! And then we watched Orphan at 4:30 in the morning. ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz! Basically, we all stayed up so late that we saw sunlight! Heck ya, XD! I'm probably gonna sleep like a baby tonight because of my all-nighter last night, but it was fo'sho worth it. I really want to do it again, actually...
Well, anyway, about that movie Grown Up's... it's seriously funny! I'll admit the Hangover was funnier, but I still loved it! I'd recommend Grown Up's for someone who wants a slightly tamer but still insanely funny movie. :)
And,, of course, Orphan just kicks butt. It's from a few years ago, or something like that, but it is GOOD WITH A CAPITAL G!
So, here I am today, the party is over and I'm ready to fall asleep at any minute, I really just decided to start this blog because, quite frankly, typing is fun! Writing about my life is fun! Maybe one day this will actually have some viewers, I really wouldn't mind either way though, and all my typing will be worth something. But, if no one comes, it will still be something fun for me to look back on! XD
OKAY, poetry time YAY!
I Don't See
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I'm standing in the light
However I can't see a thing
I can hear the music
Yet I choose not to sing
I have all my fingers
Though I don't wear a ring
Rather I be unheard, nor seen
I try not to think
Of what these things might mean
yeah, I know it's horrible... but I did it when I was feeling all sad and uncreative. And, of course, I havent edited it AT ALL. Geez. XD
It's basically about having all these chances to be something, but ignoring them because I almost want to just feel upset. ..."I can hear the music/Yet I choose not to sing"... It's saying I know its there, but I ignore it; push it away.
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My favorite song is most defiantly anything by Paramore. And my favorite songs by Paramore are "Brighter", "When it rains", and "Careful." I have all their CD's :3
^That was random
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Well, I guess I'll sign off for now. Bye!
~Lauren
anyway, my name is Lauren! I'm really not expecting anyone to read this, I'm just writing this to talk about my life and all that crap. PLUS, this is better than a journal because my mom just loves to go in my diaries/journals! It sucks.
No, I'm not saying this is some private thing that I am trying to keep a secret. Rather, I want people to find this and read it! But, I would never in a million years expect my mom to read this. My brain might explode if that happened. Mostly cause she can barely turn on a computer, much less find her daughter's blog. XD
Hmmm... so. I guess I'll post some random facts!
Best friend: i have 5!! (and these are in no particular order): Kennedie, Jordan, Sarah Elizabeth, Emily, Ambar. The only thing is Sarah E. never answers her phone and since school is out I NEEEEVER talk to her! But I get to see the other girls :)
And.. yes, of course I have other friends, but it would just be kinda stupid to list every single friend I have. it would sound snooty or something XD
Yesterday, I went to my friend Amalia's birthday party, and we went to see the movie Grown Ups! Later that night, we also watch "The house on sorority row"! It this really creepy horror movie from the '80s... it was kinda corny but still really good! And then we watched Orphan at 4:30 in the morning. ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz! Basically, we all stayed up so late that we saw sunlight! Heck ya, XD! I'm probably gonna sleep like a baby tonight because of my all-nighter last night, but it was fo'sho worth it. I really want to do it again, actually...
Well, anyway, about that movie Grown Up's... it's seriously funny! I'll admit the Hangover was funnier, but I still loved it! I'd recommend Grown Up's for someone who wants a slightly tamer but still insanely funny movie. :)
And,, of course, Orphan just kicks butt. It's from a few years ago, or something like that, but it is GOOD WITH A CAPITAL G!
So, here I am today, the party is over and I'm ready to fall asleep at any minute, I really just decided to start this blog because, quite frankly, typing is fun! Writing about my life is fun! Maybe one day this will actually have some viewers, I really wouldn't mind either way though, and all my typing will be worth something. But, if no one comes, it will still be something fun for me to look back on! XD
OKAY, poetry time YAY!
I Don't See
_______________________
I'm standing in the light
However I can't see a thing
I can hear the music
Yet I choose not to sing
I have all my fingers
Though I don't wear a ring
Rather I be unheard, nor seen
I try not to think
Of what these things might mean
yeah, I know it's horrible... but I did it when I was feeling all sad and uncreative. And, of course, I havent edited it AT ALL. Geez. XD
It's basically about having all these chances to be something, but ignoring them because I almost want to just feel upset. ..."I can hear the music/Yet I choose not to sing"... It's saying I know its there, but I ignore it; push it away.
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My favorite song is most defiantly anything by Paramore. And my favorite songs by Paramore are "Brighter", "When it rains", and "Careful." I have all their CD's :3
^That was random
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Well, I guess I'll sign off for now. Bye!
~Lauren
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