Hoooly Shit.

Well hey there. When was the last time i posted? October? Hot damn. It's January. Dear God wheere does the time go ? The last time I posted on here life was sooo different. Seriously. Strange how things can change in what, the course of a few months? Yeah it's only been ... 3 and half months. I repeat: Hot damn.
No one actually reads this, XD but it's nice to have a place to talk.
Blah. I had 5 hours of choir today. Oh joy. And then i have it tomorrow after school... we're learning a new dance to the song "funky town."
Fuck.
So I'm starting to get real tired of everything. It's kinda stressful sometimes. I mean, I have nothing to complain about. I have a house, and food[typically], and clothes and school. But sometimes i can't help but feel like something big is missing. i cant talk to anyone about really ANYTHING anymore and no matte what positive thing happens, there's always this mood dragging me down. I just don't know what to do anymore. And yes I did just bold that,because thats pretty much what sums up EXACTLY how i feel... sigh.
Cliche: it kills me to smile and act 'ok' for people. But i do it all the time it seems. Cliche? Yes. Even for people who i never imagined I'd have to 'pretend' for.

Anyways.
This has been depressing enough. See ya.

Hey. I'm not dead!

Yes, I'm not dead. Are you shocked?

I can't really say anything right now... my mom is screaming at me to come here.

Blehhh.

I'll post possibly later or tommorow...

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Perfect the way you are...

Hello, here I am... posting again. Erm, let me go ahead and say that this entry will not have a thousand '!!!!', ':)', or 'HAHAHAHA'. No, not at all. Quite frankly, I'm in a depressed/calm mood right now. And for what reason ? Well, I just got to thinking today, and, it's really true: I have absolutely no purpose in life. None whatsoever. Unfortunately I think about this all the time. And, no, I am not going to start complaining about my life (which is something Sulet has to hear quite often :-\) or anthing like that... it's just.. really depressing.
But, moving on. So last night, I was watching this ShaneDawson video on YouTube, and he made a video that was actually REALLY inspiring. (Considering his videos are usually just perverted and laugh-your-ass-off-funny.) See, I kinda (REALLY) dislike my stomach. No, I'm not overweight, but, heh heh... I just don't like my stomach. At all. And he made this video with his friend where they went around his city's mall and asked REAL people what they thought of skeleton-skinny supermodels and stuff like that. Most people said that those girls looked unhealthy, sick, etc... Then went on to say that everyone is perfect the way they are. Corny? Yeah, a little. But did it honestly make me feel a lot better? Defiantly. I think this paragraph deserves a smiley face :]
Also, school starts in four days. I have mixed emotions about going back to school. First of all, I will get to see my friends and get a laptop with a tablet. **HALLELUJAH** But, come on, it's school! Waking up at 6:00, homework, 7 hours of my day spent taking notes... blah. Not exactly fun. Not to mention that I have yet to find anyone who got my team except Holly and Danielle... they're all just Thundercats. (Seriously, ALL of them)
Plus, I am officially braindead from all the TV i watched today... let's just say that 3 hours of Degrassi, an hour of My Life as a Teenage Robot, 2 hours of Danny Phantom, and an episode of Totally Spies does not do good things to your brain. But it was fun XD And I got to stare at Eli... :3 (Hot dude from Degrassi hehehe) I'm such a stalker... I also watched this show about the 15 most tragic celebrity deaths. That was a sad, sad show... and when one of the people who died were cremated I was like "Yeah good for you!" because quite frankly, who wants to be buried underground where they will rot forever and eventually turn into a disgusting skeleton? Not me. (And I'm sure 90% of the Earths population would disagree with me) I would wanna be cremated and have my ashes spread over somewhere special to me... (And now that I say this I'll probably die soon and anyone who reads this blog will think I died on purpose and left this on here so they would know what to do with my dead body...)
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This post became very depressing didn't it?
Well, I'm gonna go now, before I start writing a will or something ...
~ Lauren

Da Thunder Will Kill Meee!

It's thundering so DAMN HARD. I seriously am probably about to get shocked by lightening and die! Wooooo!

*is still working up courage to post Shout it Out! on here*
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Sooooo... am I back to caring about much? No. Am I a little happier than I was a few days ago!? hellll yah.
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So today I had to explain what "OMFG" means to a really christian girll.... NOT FUN! She was like "oh" when I finished explaining it... fail.
But in that same conversation, I made two new friendssss! Well, technically I already knew them, but now I actually know them! [did i actually just type that... it makes about 2% sense] I have also been asked out by 2 people today and found 3 more that like me :-\ WTF, world? It's been a weird day... AND SULET WONT GET ONLINE. Rawr. :3

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oh but guess what! i actually cooked today!! maceroni and cheese! like, i put milk and butter and stuff in it. This is awesome considering i cant cook worth a crap! SO YAYA!
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My sexy 3 song playlist:
"thunder" by boys like girls
"never gonna be alone" by nickelback
"brighter" by paramore
<3

YYYYYYYYyyyyyyyUUUUUUUuuuuuuuPPPPPppppp.
Bye.

~Lauren

Let's do the 'OMG I AM SO SCREWED' dance!

Now, why is the above title my title? I'm not particularly sure... it just felt appropriate.
This will not be a long post. my head hurts like crap and quite frankly, I just want to curl up in a ball!
[yup]
So, all nighter was a success! though me and sulet were zombie-fied and both slept 10+ hours the following day! let's hear it for "doing really crazy things!"
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Ya know what? I know my possts have been short and suckish lately, but I'm past the point of caring about much of anything >.<

So... yeah...

I'll TRY to post something worth reading tommorow night
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~Lauren

All-nighter SUCCESS!!!

Hello, there! So the all nighter was a success! me and sulet made it out alive & lived to tell the tale! :D I'll post more later, because i'm on my nintendo DSi & its hard to type!

--Lauren

Hullo!

Hai!
First off, watch this video. I made it and it's on Youtube :D


Second, how the hell do you discover yourself? Yees, it's a random question but me and Sulet are working towards the answer. And the road to that answer is VERY depressing. And when I say discover, i mean that I am working torwards figuring out what's missing in my life. As is she. And what is the meaning of life?!?!The sad thing is that no one can answwer that. (www.nightfreefly.blogspot.com. Read her blog, it explains our situation better XD)
*Sidenote: OMFG MY FOOT IS ASLEEP AND IT HURTS LIKE HELL.
Ahem.
Anyways, how are we going about this mission? Long discussions about life and everything in it, our insecurites and fears are being listed, and we ATTEMPT to give reasons of why we were put on this Earth, xD
As sulet put on her blog : "We're born. We grow up. We marry and have kids. We get old. We retire. We try and cram some last bits of fun into life before we die. Then our kids carry out that process, then their kids, then their kids, then THEIR kids, forever more." Depressing but very very true. :-/
So why are we put on this Earth? Some say its a test to see if we go to heaven. I say, wouldnt we just go straight to heaven? Whats the point of stopping at earth first? O_o
meh... whatever.
heres what i have discovered about myself: not much :-/ just that i trust the wrong people sometimes.

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on the plus side, me and sulet are gonnaa try and pull an all nighter soon! :D woooooooot.

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haha, bye!

~lauren <3